In d-news, my blood sugars have been a little more stable after a couple of tweaks to my basal/bolus rates. I've still had more highs than I'd like, but I would still much rather run slightly higher than to deal with low crashes--especially at night! After reading my last post, my CDE called to make sure I was okay because she was concerned about the lows I'd written about. I assured her that I had gotten everything straightened out and back under control, or at least as under control as T1 can be, I suppose! Thanks to her great teaching after I was diagnosed and general awesomeness thereafter, I can usually identify what changes need to be made or shoot her an email when I need extra help fixing things. She was the first person (other than my husband, of course) to know when I was pregnant, and the first person other than my husband or I to hold our baby girl...not to get all sentimental or anything, but I'm so glad to have such a great mentor to help me through the whole d-experience! If it weren't for her, I would have pretty much been left to deal with it all on my own since my endocrinologist has always been more comfortable with higher numbers and letting me manage everything myself...which is good in a way since it gives me a lot of independence, but bad in others. Anyway, I know that a lot of T1s aren't as lucky when it comes to the professional help they get, so I feel super blessed to have someone that knows their stuff and is a great friend too!
Monday, April 16, 2012
Baby Girl, My Awesome CDE, & JDRF
I don't have much time to write today, but I wanted to post a quick update on everything going on! First off, Baby Girl is going to be three months old a week from tomorrow and I honestly can't believe it. It seems like the time has gone by so fast already! When we went for her two month checkup a few weeks ago, we found out she has reflux...which explains the extreme fussiness, poor sleep habits, lack of weight gain, and other symptoms over the first couple of months. Our pediatrician put her on Zantac and recommended we raise the head of her bed and thicken her supplementary formula with cereal, and it's seemed to make a pretty big difference. We just started the rice cereal last week, and now she's sleeping for MUCH longer stretches at night...needless to say, this mama couldn't be happier! In retrospect, I should have realized what all of her symptoms were pointing towards much earlier than I did, but like they say, hindsight is 20/20. I'm just glad we figured it out at six weeks instead of six months!
I mentioned in October last year that my CDE had nominated me to the board of directors for the local branch of the JDRF, so over the past several months I've been learning more about everything the JDRF does and trying to help out as much as I've been able to. It's really been awesome to see how dedicated everyone is to finding a cure and the support that the branch receives from the community. This weekend is the annual Promise Benefit Gala, which helps raise around $250,000 for the organization each year. I can't wait to be a part of it all, and I know it's going to be an amazing event! I attended my first board meeting a couple of weeks ago, and I was impressed by how involved everyone is and how much they do to support not only the JDRF, but the kids and families affected by T1. I've said it before, but I truly am honored to be able to be a part of such an awesome organization! In one of her last email updates, our Branch Manager said, “This
board can move mountains and they will be the ones that make the CURE
happen!” The more that I see how dedicated each and every person associated with this organization is, the more I believe she's right!
Friday, March 23, 2012
Low Places
As with everything else in my very type-A life, I began thinking about what my life as a parent with diabetes would be like long before I was even pregnant. True to my need-to-know-everything-about-anything-that-affects-me form, I read a book on the subject last year
(When You're a Parent With Diabetes: A Real Life Guide to Staying Healthy While Raising a Family by Kathryn Gregorio Palmer). It's a great book with tons of tips for managing your disease in the context of parenting, and I highly recommend it. Of course, no matter how much reading you do, nothing ever really prepares you for reality quite like...well, reality.
I knew theoretically that there would be times when my diabetes got in the way of parenting to the point that I'd sometimes have to put taking care of my disease before taking care of my child (the whole "putting on your own oxygen mask before trying to save your children" thing); however, I never imagined how bad this would actually suck in practice. Before when I had a low, even a bad one, it wasn't much cause for concern. I'd treat it, wait a bit, and go on with my life. Now, though, there's another little person who is completely dependent on me to think about. When I have a low, I have to drop what I'm doing with her to treat it, which usually means leaving her there to cry on her own for what in reality is only a minute or two but in my world seems like an eternity. Probably the suckiest time that this happens is when I've just sat down and have everything situated to feed her, only to have to leave our comfy home base (aka, the recliner) to find something with sugar as quickly as possible so she doesn't break into one of those gut-wrenching, inconsolably angry crying jags. Ordinarily, getting up from a chair wouldn't be a big deal; however, when you're (severely) sleep deprived and are trying your best to satisfy a crying baby, it's an entirely different story.
I've also been letting my numbers run slightly higher than normal, especially at night, because now the fear of the low you don't wake up from has an entirely new dimension. Our poor baby would undoubtedly go hungry until morning, because although the hubby helps me as much as he can when he's home, he just doesn't wake up at night. The first two nights in the hospital, he woke at her every cry...now, sometimes I think it'd take a freight train to wake him up! One of our first weeks at home, I remember having a pretty bad low during the night. I turned the lamp above our bed on and went to get some glucose tablets, then came back to our bedroom to wait it out. 15 minutes later, my blood sugar still hadn't risen much, so I grabbed some orange juice from the fridge in the kitchen and crossed my fingers. My blood sugar was back in the normal range after that, but I was hit with the realization that (a) my hubby (aka, the slumbering log in bed next to me) didn't even know I was up and (b) the baby wasn't going to be much help if I passed out.
Since then, I've made sure to keep a close eye on my numbers before bed, and set temporary basal rates if necessary to keep me hovering above 100. Of course, this inevitably leads to slightly higher numbers first thing in the morning; however, at this point I'd much rather run a bit higher on average than to risk the danger of a horrible low at night...there's just too much at stake now!
When I was pregnant, I had to keep a super close eye on my diabetes because it very directly affected the baby growing inside me. Thanks to the hormonal changes that come with pregnancy, it was very difficult to keep my numbers in a tight range. I figured it would be a lot easier after the baby was born, and in a way it is...because my hormones have returned to normal, I no longer have to take massive amounts of insulin to cover my carbs at meals, and my patterns are a lot more predictable. However, the fact that my baby is no longer directly affected by highs (but just as much by lows) makes me a lot more laid-back when it comes to my blood sugars than I was before. Don't be mistaken; highs still frustrate me and I'm still concerned with keeping my average in a reasonable range; but at this point, I'm more concerned with the lows than the highs. Once I get a better handle on the parenting thing, I know I'll return to my perfectionist style of diabetes management...for now, though, I'm okay with good enough.
(When You're a Parent With Diabetes: A Real Life Guide to Staying Healthy While Raising a Family by Kathryn Gregorio Palmer). It's a great book with tons of tips for managing your disease in the context of parenting, and I highly recommend it. Of course, no matter how much reading you do, nothing ever really prepares you for reality quite like...well, reality.
I knew theoretically that there would be times when my diabetes got in the way of parenting to the point that I'd sometimes have to put taking care of my disease before taking care of my child (the whole "putting on your own oxygen mask before trying to save your children" thing); however, I never imagined how bad this would actually suck in practice. Before when I had a low, even a bad one, it wasn't much cause for concern. I'd treat it, wait a bit, and go on with my life. Now, though, there's another little person who is completely dependent on me to think about. When I have a low, I have to drop what I'm doing with her to treat it, which usually means leaving her there to cry on her own for what in reality is only a minute or two but in my world seems like an eternity. Probably the suckiest time that this happens is when I've just sat down and have everything situated to feed her, only to have to leave our comfy home base (aka, the recliner) to find something with sugar as quickly as possible so she doesn't break into one of those gut-wrenching, inconsolably angry crying jags. Ordinarily, getting up from a chair wouldn't be a big deal; however, when you're (severely) sleep deprived and are trying your best to satisfy a crying baby, it's an entirely different story.
I've also been letting my numbers run slightly higher than normal, especially at night, because now the fear of the low you don't wake up from has an entirely new dimension. Our poor baby would undoubtedly go hungry until morning, because although the hubby helps me as much as he can when he's home, he just doesn't wake up at night. The first two nights in the hospital, he woke at her every cry...now, sometimes I think it'd take a freight train to wake him up! One of our first weeks at home, I remember having a pretty bad low during the night. I turned the lamp above our bed on and went to get some glucose tablets, then came back to our bedroom to wait it out. 15 minutes later, my blood sugar still hadn't risen much, so I grabbed some orange juice from the fridge in the kitchen and crossed my fingers. My blood sugar was back in the normal range after that, but I was hit with the realization that (a) my hubby (aka, the slumbering log in bed next to me) didn't even know I was up and (b) the baby wasn't going to be much help if I passed out.
Since then, I've made sure to keep a close eye on my numbers before bed, and set temporary basal rates if necessary to keep me hovering above 100. Of course, this inevitably leads to slightly higher numbers first thing in the morning; however, at this point I'd much rather run a bit higher on average than to risk the danger of a horrible low at night...there's just too much at stake now!
When I was pregnant, I had to keep a super close eye on my diabetes because it very directly affected the baby growing inside me. Thanks to the hormonal changes that come with pregnancy, it was very difficult to keep my numbers in a tight range. I figured it would be a lot easier after the baby was born, and in a way it is...because my hormones have returned to normal, I no longer have to take massive amounts of insulin to cover my carbs at meals, and my patterns are a lot more predictable. However, the fact that my baby is no longer directly affected by highs (but just as much by lows) makes me a lot more laid-back when it comes to my blood sugars than I was before. Don't be mistaken; highs still frustrate me and I'm still concerned with keeping my average in a reasonable range; but at this point, I'm more concerned with the lows than the highs. Once I get a better handle on the parenting thing, I know I'll return to my perfectionist style of diabetes management...for now, though, I'm okay with good enough.
Thursday, March 8, 2012
Baby Love
Yesterday was the last official day of my maternity leave...and I honestly can't believe six weeks went by so fast. I know everyone says that once you have a baby they grow up in the blink of an eye, but I've found out that (like many other things, a la the accompanying lack of sleep) you really can't understand this phenomenon until you have one of your own.
Six weeks ago, our lives changed. Six weeks ago, we brought home a precious baby girl that still seemed like somewhat of a stranger to us (but whom we've since come to understand a little better, thankfully!). In the time since, I've grown as a person. I've learned what it truly means to be selfless as I've spent countless hours in a sleepless delirium trying to please a screaming baby, often to no avail. I've come to understand a different kind of love, one in which the prospect of this tiny person being hurt, sick, or just unhappy brings a sinking feeling to my chest. I've learned that good enough is, in fact, good enough when it comes to many things that I was a perfectionist about in the past. Not only is it very difficult to get much accomplished when you're at the mercy of a newborn's crazy "schedule;" it's also incredibly easy to pass the hours and days entirely just holding her in my arms.
Then there's the sheer awesomeness of watching her grow and change before our very eyes...My husband was quickly amazed by the fact that such a tiny little girl could be so strong, and I love to take pictures of her (sometimes several a day) and look back to see how different she looks a short time later. Around her one month "birthday," she started smiling...#ohmygoodness! Her adorable toothless grins never cease to put a smile on my face, even if it is just while she's carrying on one of her "conversations" with the ceiling fan! Last night, I had finally managed to calm her down after she'd been crying when she sighed dramatically. I mimicked her, and got a huge smile in return! It's true when they say that you'll do anything you can to get those priceless grins =)
She's also starting to interact more with the world around her. There is a canopy on her Pack 'N Play that has giraffes hanging from it, and the other day while I was getting ready in the bathroom a short distance away, I could hear her cooing at them...and now they're within arm's reach! I also finally ordered the Skip Hop activity gym I'd been wanting to get for her--it's a little pricey, but it's much cuter than any of the others I've seen. The first time I laid her on it after it came in, I propped her up on her tummy on the miniature Boppy-style pillow it comes with so she could look at herself in the mirror, and I was amazed at how much head control she has! It didn't take long for her to topple over the front of it, though, because her little legs never stop moving...if I lay her on my stomach, she quickly ends up by my face/shoulder as the result of her pushing off with them. Of course, I knew when I was pregnant with her that she was going to be a little wiggle worm...she never stopped moving! I didn't even bother doing the prescribed "kick counts" at the end because she moved so much...in that way, she's definitely her daddy's child!
To shift gears a little, I was reading a post on SixUntilMe the other day about Kerri checking her daughter's blood sugar and the fear that comes with being a parent with T1. As Kerri says, it's a thought that creeps up on you, either during (or before) pregnancy or when a harmless symptom (such as a wetter-than-normal diaper or an extra-thirsty baby) pops up later on: the big "What if?". As a PWD, we're very familiar with the subtle symptoms that accompany this disease, and sometimes we're a little over-vigilant when we see them in those around us. The thing is, just like Kerri said in her post, there's no need to sit around fearing that our children will suffer the same fate we did in the autoimmune/genetic pool.
When I was pregnant with our little girl, the question of whether or not she would "get it" (T1) too came up fairly often. I tried to use these instances as education opportunities as I informed people that my children would have about the same chance as anyone else of ending up with this disease. Although their risk is somewhat elevated (4% versus 1%), there's still a very small chance that they'll have Type 1 as a result of my having it. In fact, as stated on the JDRF website, "only 15 percent of people with type 1 diabetes have an affected first-degree relative - a sibling, parent, or offspring." Therefore, that my sister and I both have it makes us an anomaly among anomalies...We're part of the 5-10% of people with diabetes who have Type 1, as well as the 15% of the aforementioned group!
Even though the chance of our children developing T1 is very slim, I'm still going to do everything in my power to decrease that possibility as much as possible. Because of the (loose) link between the protein in cow's milk and T1, I chose to use soy formula when we were forced to start supplementing. Of course, the original plan was to breastfeed exclusively for the first six months; however, we had to start supplementing with formula when she wasn't gaining weight like she was supposed to (which I still believe is possibly due to gastro esophageal reflux, because she will do fine for a minute or two, then arch her back away screaming...her two-month checkup is about two and a half weeks away, so I guess we'll find out then). Because not much is known about the cause of T1 (and because it's an autoimmune disease, and therefore extremely complicated), it's so hard to know what to do to prevent it...I suppose all we can do is raise our kids with a healthy lifestyle and hope for the best!
What many people do not understand is the autoimmune aspect of T1. Thanks in part to the media and popular (mis)conception of diabetes, they assume that age is the only difference between the types. I'll be the first to admit that before I was diagnosed, I didn't understand the difference--and my younger sister was diagnosed years before me! Since my diagnosis, it's become very clear that we need to put more effort into educating the general public about diabetes, but especially T1. It would make life much easier for those of us living with it! I've tried to use every opportunity I get to educate people in everyday conversations, and in November I wrote an article addressing many of the misconceptions about the disease for our local newspaper. However, it seems like for every person who "gets it," there are 10 more who don't. Sometimes it seems like a losing battle, but I refuse to give up. Until there's a cure for Type 1, the next best thing is making living with it easier, and that's something I--and you--can be a part of.
Six weeks ago, our lives changed. Six weeks ago, we brought home a precious baby girl that still seemed like somewhat of a stranger to us (but whom we've since come to understand a little better, thankfully!). In the time since, I've grown as a person. I've learned what it truly means to be selfless as I've spent countless hours in a sleepless delirium trying to please a screaming baby, often to no avail. I've come to understand a different kind of love, one in which the prospect of this tiny person being hurt, sick, or just unhappy brings a sinking feeling to my chest. I've learned that good enough is, in fact, good enough when it comes to many things that I was a perfectionist about in the past. Not only is it very difficult to get much accomplished when you're at the mercy of a newborn's crazy "schedule;" it's also incredibly easy to pass the hours and days entirely just holding her in my arms.
Then there's the sheer awesomeness of watching her grow and change before our very eyes...My husband was quickly amazed by the fact that such a tiny little girl could be so strong, and I love to take pictures of her (sometimes several a day) and look back to see how different she looks a short time later. Around her one month "birthday," she started smiling...#ohmygoodness! Her adorable toothless grins never cease to put a smile on my face, even if it is just while she's carrying on one of her "conversations" with the ceiling fan! Last night, I had finally managed to calm her down after she'd been crying when she sighed dramatically. I mimicked her, and got a huge smile in return! It's true when they say that you'll do anything you can to get those priceless grins =)
She's also starting to interact more with the world around her. There is a canopy on her Pack 'N Play that has giraffes hanging from it, and the other day while I was getting ready in the bathroom a short distance away, I could hear her cooing at them...and now they're within arm's reach! I also finally ordered the Skip Hop activity gym I'd been wanting to get for her--it's a little pricey, but it's much cuter than any of the others I've seen. The first time I laid her on it after it came in, I propped her up on her tummy on the miniature Boppy-style pillow it comes with so she could look at herself in the mirror, and I was amazed at how much head control she has! It didn't take long for her to topple over the front of it, though, because her little legs never stop moving...if I lay her on my stomach, she quickly ends up by my face/shoulder as the result of her pushing off with them. Of course, I knew when I was pregnant with her that she was going to be a little wiggle worm...she never stopped moving! I didn't even bother doing the prescribed "kick counts" at the end because she moved so much...in that way, she's definitely her daddy's child!
To shift gears a little, I was reading a post on SixUntilMe the other day about Kerri checking her daughter's blood sugar and the fear that comes with being a parent with T1. As Kerri says, it's a thought that creeps up on you, either during (or before) pregnancy or when a harmless symptom (such as a wetter-than-normal diaper or an extra-thirsty baby) pops up later on: the big "What if?". As a PWD, we're very familiar with the subtle symptoms that accompany this disease, and sometimes we're a little over-vigilant when we see them in those around us. The thing is, just like Kerri said in her post, there's no need to sit around fearing that our children will suffer the same fate we did in the autoimmune/genetic pool.
When I was pregnant with our little girl, the question of whether or not she would "get it" (T1) too came up fairly often. I tried to use these instances as education opportunities as I informed people that my children would have about the same chance as anyone else of ending up with this disease. Although their risk is somewhat elevated (4% versus 1%), there's still a very small chance that they'll have Type 1 as a result of my having it. In fact, as stated on the JDRF website, "only 15 percent of people with type 1 diabetes have an affected first-degree relative - a sibling, parent, or offspring." Therefore, that my sister and I both have it makes us an anomaly among anomalies...We're part of the 5-10% of people with diabetes who have Type 1, as well as the 15% of the aforementioned group!
Even though the chance of our children developing T1 is very slim, I'm still going to do everything in my power to decrease that possibility as much as possible. Because of the (loose) link between the protein in cow's milk and T1, I chose to use soy formula when we were forced to start supplementing. Of course, the original plan was to breastfeed exclusively for the first six months; however, we had to start supplementing with formula when she wasn't gaining weight like she was supposed to (which I still believe is possibly due to gastro esophageal reflux, because she will do fine for a minute or two, then arch her back away screaming...her two-month checkup is about two and a half weeks away, so I guess we'll find out then). Because not much is known about the cause of T1 (and because it's an autoimmune disease, and therefore extremely complicated), it's so hard to know what to do to prevent it...I suppose all we can do is raise our kids with a healthy lifestyle and hope for the best!
What many people do not understand is the autoimmune aspect of T1. Thanks in part to the media and popular (mis)conception of diabetes, they assume that age is the only difference between the types. I'll be the first to admit that before I was diagnosed, I didn't understand the difference--and my younger sister was diagnosed years before me! Since my diagnosis, it's become very clear that we need to put more effort into educating the general public about diabetes, but especially T1. It would make life much easier for those of us living with it! I've tried to use every opportunity I get to educate people in everyday conversations, and in November I wrote an article addressing many of the misconceptions about the disease for our local newspaper. However, it seems like for every person who "gets it," there are 10 more who don't. Sometimes it seems like a losing battle, but I refuse to give up. Until there's a cure for Type 1, the next best thing is making living with it easier, and that's something I--and you--can be a part of.
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
Patient Responsibility...And a Baby Update, Of Course =)
My last posts haven't had as much to do with diabetes as much as with my pregnancy and subsequent labor/delivery, so today I thought I'd go back to my roots for this one...although I'll preface with a baby update =)
Our little one is doing great--at five weeks old, she's growing and changing every day! I was looking at some pictures of her from while we were in the hospital and right after we brought her home, and I was amazed by how different she looks already. I also can't believe that she's already five weeks old...the time is already going by so fast =( We had our first health scare last week when our baby girl started coughing at night, but luckily a trip to the pediatrician (an hour and a half away) relieved our fears--she just had a head cold, and the cough was from the accompanying drainage. Nonetheless, I was glad to have answers since we were told that while sneezing in a baby was normal, coughing was not. Not to mention that there's so much sickness going around right now...even though we've made it a point to stay home during these vulnerable first weeks, we still have visitors and can't avoid being in public for checkups and the like.
Even though I didn't think it was anything serious, I couldn't help but worry about her--especially since I'm at home with her most of the day by myself with only my thoughts to keep me company! I know it's only the beginning of parental worry, but that doesn't make it any easier to deal with...even as we sat in the (sick) waiting room of the doctor's office, I couldn't help but think that if she wasn't sick to begin with, she might be by the time we left due to the older kids who were coughing around us! Thankfully, though, everything turned out fine. At the end of the week, I had to go back for my postnatal checkup where I had an IUD (Mirena) put in...as much as we love our little bundle of joy, I doubt we'll be ready for another one for a couple of years!
While we were in the waiting room, I had to buckle the little one back into her car seat since I'd just put her in there after feeding her in the parking lot before the appointment. I quickly realized that was a mistake, because as soon as she was uncovered, a woman with her pregnant daughter and two-year-old grandchild came over to investigate. I know it's a first-time parent thing, but it took everything I had to not go all "mama bear" on them as the grandmother kept pushing the toddler towards our car seat telling her to "look at the baby!" I simply finished buckling her in while my mom answered their questions, and bundled her back up! Let me just say, I have no problem with people I know getting close to or holding our little one (as long as they're not sick and their hands are clean!), but random strangers?! I'll be the first to admit it freaks me out, and I won't apologize. After all, how do I know that the toddler wasn't sick? It may sound a little extreme, but pertussis (whooping cough) can kill a baby our little one's age, so until she can get her first dTap vaccine (at two months), she's vulnerable...and it's our responsibility to protect her. For that reason, we're following our pediatrician's advice of keeping our baby girl away from public places (and other young/unvaccinated children) as much as possible until the two month point...which means no church, grocery store/Walmart trips, or hanging out with our friends and their kiddos. It's hard, but at this point our social life is much less important than keeping the little one healthy!
Okay, now that we've got all of that covered, down to business =)
I placed an order for glucose sensors for my CGM (Continuous Glucose Monitor) on February 10th, but never received notification that it had shipped. On Monday, I called Medtronic and found out that the holdup was that my endocrinologist hadn't faxed the certificate of medical necessity back to them. After having Medtronic re-fax the form, I called my endo's office to confirm they got it and let them know that I needed them to fill it out and return it ASAP...our new insurance year begins March 1st, so I needed to have my order shipped by today in order for it to be covered under this year, for which we'd already met our (ridiculously high) deductible. They said they would get it taken care of, so in the meanwhile I checked the status of my order online on a regular basis. By today, I was starting to get nervous. I called Medtronic back to find out why my order still hadn't shipped, and found out that my endo hadn't checked the CGM box on the prescription form, so they were going to have to fax it to them once again to be signed. This afternoon, I called the endocrinologist's office to make sure they received it and to give them the instructions on properly filling it out and sending it back. A while after that, I called Medtronic (again...thankfully you get to talk to a different person every time, otherwise I'm sure they'd be tired of me by now!), only to find out that it would take 24-48 hours before the prescription certificate would be reviewed and scanned into their system.
As a result, I was forced to cancel my order...there was just no way, with the medical bills we're fixing to have to pay from the c-section and hospital stay and my husband's taxes that will be due in April (on top of our usual bills, baby stuff, and my insulin pump supplies, which run $492.80 every three months), that we need another $1,000 (the rough amount we'd be responsible for with the 20% insurance discount for my three boxes of glucose sensors) to worry about paying. My parents offered to help, but I don't feel like that's their responsibility. So right now, I'm disappointed and frustrated. Disappointed that I'll soon run out of sensors, because even though I only use them occasionally now, they're super helpful in keeping an eye on my blood sugars as well as in adjusting insulin rates. Frustrated (extremely) that everything was finally resolved to get my order out one day late, which is just my luck--a day late, a dollar short!
I'm mostly frustrated with my endocrinologist, because I suspect that the reason my form wasn't filled out and returned sooner is because he was on vacation (several members of my family also see him, and their stuff was just taken care of yesterday as well). I have nothing against vacations, of course, but it would have been nice for his office to have called and let me know so I would have known why my order was delayed for more than two weeks. Now I'm stuck with no sensors, which admittedly aren't as much of a necessity now that I'm no longer pregnant, but are still an integral part of my diabetes management...unless we end up meeting our deductible elsewhere, which is unlikely since my insulin pump supplies for a year don't come close to that amount, or I order a smaller quantity of supplies at a time. I guess we'll see what happens!
Probably the suckiest part about the whole ordeal is the realization that I wouldn't have even known why my order was held up had I not been persistent about getting to the bottom of it. As if living with diabetes isn't hard enough, I hate, hate, hate having to deal with the financial and political parts that come along with it...and on the spectrum, I'm very active in my health and d-management. I sometimes wonder how people who aren't as involved in their healthcare do it, because I have to be very on top of things to ensure I get the care and everything else necessary to manage this disease. It certainly begs the question of how much responsibility a patient should have in their healthcare, especially when a disease like diabetes (and insulin!) is involved...I can't help but question whether all PWD have to deal with the same things I do, or if doctors simply evaluate how much freedom (and therefore responsibility) to give their patients on an individual basis. I honestly believe it's the latter, because I know that my endocrinologist has been pretty laid-back as far as how often he sees me (every quarter, even during my pregnancy, whereas he saw my sister every month or so during hers, and my next visit will be five months from the last...) and the level of control he gives me over my own d-care--I make the necessary changes to my insulin rates based on my blood sugar logs, and contact my CDE (rather than my endocrinologist) if I run across any problems.
I know from reading other diabetes blogs and from other PWD that I know personally that the level of control patients are given varies greatly, but sometimes I wonder if some of us are given too much responsibility when it comes to making sure things happen the way they should regarding our healthcare issues...I know in this instance, I would have rather not had to taken so much time and put so much effort into finding out why my supplies hadn't been shipped!
Our little one is doing great--at five weeks old, she's growing and changing every day! I was looking at some pictures of her from while we were in the hospital and right after we brought her home, and I was amazed by how different she looks already. I also can't believe that she's already five weeks old...the time is already going by so fast =( We had our first health scare last week when our baby girl started coughing at night, but luckily a trip to the pediatrician (an hour and a half away) relieved our fears--she just had a head cold, and the cough was from the accompanying drainage. Nonetheless, I was glad to have answers since we were told that while sneezing in a baby was normal, coughing was not. Not to mention that there's so much sickness going around right now...even though we've made it a point to stay home during these vulnerable first weeks, we still have visitors and can't avoid being in public for checkups and the like.
Even though I didn't think it was anything serious, I couldn't help but worry about her--especially since I'm at home with her most of the day by myself with only my thoughts to keep me company! I know it's only the beginning of parental worry, but that doesn't make it any easier to deal with...even as we sat in the (sick) waiting room of the doctor's office, I couldn't help but think that if she wasn't sick to begin with, she might be by the time we left due to the older kids who were coughing around us! Thankfully, though, everything turned out fine. At the end of the week, I had to go back for my postnatal checkup where I had an IUD (Mirena) put in...as much as we love our little bundle of joy, I doubt we'll be ready for another one for a couple of years!
While we were in the waiting room, I had to buckle the little one back into her car seat since I'd just put her in there after feeding her in the parking lot before the appointment. I quickly realized that was a mistake, because as soon as she was uncovered, a woman with her pregnant daughter and two-year-old grandchild came over to investigate. I know it's a first-time parent thing, but it took everything I had to not go all "mama bear" on them as the grandmother kept pushing the toddler towards our car seat telling her to "look at the baby!" I simply finished buckling her in while my mom answered their questions, and bundled her back up! Let me just say, I have no problem with people I know getting close to or holding our little one (as long as they're not sick and their hands are clean!), but random strangers?! I'll be the first to admit it freaks me out, and I won't apologize. After all, how do I know that the toddler wasn't sick? It may sound a little extreme, but pertussis (whooping cough) can kill a baby our little one's age, so until she can get her first dTap vaccine (at two months), she's vulnerable...and it's our responsibility to protect her. For that reason, we're following our pediatrician's advice of keeping our baby girl away from public places (and other young/unvaccinated children) as much as possible until the two month point...which means no church, grocery store/Walmart trips, or hanging out with our friends and their kiddos. It's hard, but at this point our social life is much less important than keeping the little one healthy!
Okay, now that we've got all of that covered, down to business =)
I placed an order for glucose sensors for my CGM (Continuous Glucose Monitor) on February 10th, but never received notification that it had shipped. On Monday, I called Medtronic and found out that the holdup was that my endocrinologist hadn't faxed the certificate of medical necessity back to them. After having Medtronic re-fax the form, I called my endo's office to confirm they got it and let them know that I needed them to fill it out and return it ASAP...our new insurance year begins March 1st, so I needed to have my order shipped by today in order for it to be covered under this year, for which we'd already met our (ridiculously high) deductible. They said they would get it taken care of, so in the meanwhile I checked the status of my order online on a regular basis. By today, I was starting to get nervous. I called Medtronic back to find out why my order still hadn't shipped, and found out that my endo hadn't checked the CGM box on the prescription form, so they were going to have to fax it to them once again to be signed. This afternoon, I called the endocrinologist's office to make sure they received it and to give them the instructions on properly filling it out and sending it back. A while after that, I called Medtronic (again...thankfully you get to talk to a different person every time, otherwise I'm sure they'd be tired of me by now!), only to find out that it would take 24-48 hours before the prescription certificate would be reviewed and scanned into their system.
As a result, I was forced to cancel my order...there was just no way, with the medical bills we're fixing to have to pay from the c-section and hospital stay and my husband's taxes that will be due in April (on top of our usual bills, baby stuff, and my insulin pump supplies, which run $492.80 every three months), that we need another $1,000 (the rough amount we'd be responsible for with the 20% insurance discount for my three boxes of glucose sensors) to worry about paying. My parents offered to help, but I don't feel like that's their responsibility. So right now, I'm disappointed and frustrated. Disappointed that I'll soon run out of sensors, because even though I only use them occasionally now, they're super helpful in keeping an eye on my blood sugars as well as in adjusting insulin rates. Frustrated (extremely) that everything was finally resolved to get my order out one day late, which is just my luck--a day late, a dollar short!
I'm mostly frustrated with my endocrinologist, because I suspect that the reason my form wasn't filled out and returned sooner is because he was on vacation (several members of my family also see him, and their stuff was just taken care of yesterday as well). I have nothing against vacations, of course, but it would have been nice for his office to have called and let me know so I would have known why my order was delayed for more than two weeks. Now I'm stuck with no sensors, which admittedly aren't as much of a necessity now that I'm no longer pregnant, but are still an integral part of my diabetes management...unless we end up meeting our deductible elsewhere, which is unlikely since my insulin pump supplies for a year don't come close to that amount, or I order a smaller quantity of supplies at a time. I guess we'll see what happens!
Probably the suckiest part about the whole ordeal is the realization that I wouldn't have even known why my order was held up had I not been persistent about getting to the bottom of it. As if living with diabetes isn't hard enough, I hate, hate, hate having to deal with the financial and political parts that come along with it...and on the spectrum, I'm very active in my health and d-management. I sometimes wonder how people who aren't as involved in their healthcare do it, because I have to be very on top of things to ensure I get the care and everything else necessary to manage this disease. It certainly begs the question of how much responsibility a patient should have in their healthcare, especially when a disease like diabetes (and insulin!) is involved...I can't help but question whether all PWD have to deal with the same things I do, or if doctors simply evaluate how much freedom (and therefore responsibility) to give their patients on an individual basis. I honestly believe it's the latter, because I know that my endocrinologist has been pretty laid-back as far as how often he sees me (every quarter, even during my pregnancy, whereas he saw my sister every month or so during hers, and my next visit will be five months from the last...) and the level of control he gives me over my own d-care--I make the necessary changes to my insulin rates based on my blood sugar logs, and contact my CDE (rather than my endocrinologist) if I run across any problems.
I know from reading other diabetes blogs and from other PWD that I know personally that the level of control patients are given varies greatly, but sometimes I wonder if some of us are given too much responsibility when it comes to making sure things happen the way they should regarding our healthcare issues...I know in this instance, I would have rather not had to taken so much time and put so much effort into finding out why my supplies hadn't been shipped!
Saturday, February 18, 2012
An Eventful Delivery of a Precious Package
My last post was a little over a month ago, but I promise I have a very good reason this time...our sweet little girl is almost four weeks old! Everything I last wrote about seems like it happened in a different lifetime, because there is now a very clear distinction between our lives before and after baby...and I honestly can't believe how quickly time is flying by now that she's here! Speaking of which, I'll fill you in on the crazy journey that was her arrival...
As most of you know, we were scheduled for a c-section on January 25th. The day before, we were supposed to go for my last ultrasound and OB visit to confirm that our little one was still breech and to go over any last-minute details and questions. However, we never made it that far...it turns out that my mom's "feeling" that she would come before then was right! Around 2:30AM on the 24th, my water broke. After waking up my husband (whose first question was, "Are you sure?"...Yes, honey, I am positive that the huge gush I just experienced wasn't courtesy of my bladder!) and calling to talk to the doctor on call, we finished up packing the last few things so we could begin the hour-and-a-half drive to the hospital. The OB I talked to told me there was no reason to rush; that once we got there, they'd just plan to call our doctor and we'd do the c-section around 7:00 that morning as long as everything looked good.
While we got our things together, however, I started having contractions...contractions that were three minutes apart. I still didn't think much of it; after all, contractions were supposed to be irregular at the start of labor, right? We got everything (and ourselves) loaded up in the car and took off. Since we didn't think we were in much of a hurry, my hubby drove 75 the whole way, just five miles over the speed limit. Meanwhile, I was trying to hold it together and deal with the pain by breathing deeply. That worked for a while, but my contractions just got stronger and stronger and were definitely closer together...they were two minutes apart and a minute long the entire way. By the time we were 30 miles away, I was having a hard time dealing with the pain; when we got into town, I was thinking that I would definitely need an epidural if I was going to go through that for a few more hours!
When we arrived at the hospital, we parked in front of the ER entrance and grabbed my file folder of paperwork out of the car. Apparently, the triage nurse could clearly tell I was in active labor, because we were admitted instantly and taken up to the labor and delivery floor (fastest ER visit I've ever had!). Once we got to a L&D room, the nurses started prepping me for surgery and asking me a million questions. I was in A LOT of pain, and the nurse starting my IV had to keep reminding me to breathe deeply. They were debating on whether or not to check me to see how much I was dilated, but decided since I'd be having a c-section there wasn't any need. Right after that conclusion, however, I started to feel some pressure. Once I told them that, one of the nurses did a cervical exam and announced that I was complete...as in, completely dilated, all 10cm! (Oh, and she was still breech...which turned out to be a blessing in disguise, because if she'd been head down, she probably would have been born on the road somewhere between home and the hospital!) At that point, things started moving a lot quicker (and they told me not to push), but I still had to sign more paperwork before they took us back to the operating room...I'm pretty sure my signature was unrecognizable as my own, but I was in so much shock at how quickly everything had progressed that I honestly didn't care! I just couldn't believe that I'd progressed from 0-60 (relatively speaking, not literally of course!) in just a couple of hours, especially since first labors are supposed to be much longer, on average...Then again, nothing about me ever seems to fall on the "normal" side of things =) Either way, it explained why I was in so much pain...which, I'll admit, did give me a certain sense of accomplishment since I wasn't sure if I'd be able to handle labor without medication!
Once we got back to the OR, they transferred me to the operating table and quickly shaved me and got everything prepped for the c-section. Luckily, the anesthesiologist was waiting, so between (super painful) contractions, he did his thing. (The spinal, by the way, was a breeze...I've had insulin pump sites that were more painful, although I'm sure it seemed a lot less so in comparison to my contractions!) I was then able to lay down, and felt one more contraction before everything from the waist down went gloriously numb. Meanwhile, my hubby was scrubbing in for the delivery. He had planned to watch the c-section, but after everything had gone so quickly, he just wanted to be by my side through it all. The nurses in the delivery room were joking that they'd have to teach him to deliver babies for our next children, since they always say subsequent labors go faster than the first--yikes!
Up to that point, I'd been wearing my pump and CGM and had been checking my blood sugar every so often so I'd know where I was. Since I had been consistently around 110 throughout labor, I wasn't worried at all about my blood sugar during surgery; however, things in that respect unfortunately didn't exactly go as planned. My doctor had given me the go-ahead to keep my pump on throughout the whole process and my CDE was going to be on site in case the anesthesiologist had any questions or problems with it, but since neither of them were there at 5:00 in the morning, I was left to hash out the details with them myself. The anesthesiologist, though very, very nice and wonderful at his job, didn't like the idea of keeping my pump hooked up, so I had to take it off. By the time I was in recovery, I think my blood sugar was around 140 (if I remember correctly). Due to that fact, our sweet little girl's blood sugar was low upon her arrival into the world, something I never thought we'd have to deal with since my control had been so good through the entire pregnancy.
Other than that, however, we were incredibly blessed to have a perfectly healthy baby girl! My husband got to watch them examine her while they stitched me up, and even got to have her little feet stamped on his disposable scrub shirt...he is so proud of that keepsake! After they cleaned her up, I got to see and kiss her before they took her to the nursery and wheeled me to the recovery room. They eventually brought her to me in there to breastfeed in an attempt to raise her blood sugar, but ended up having to give her some formula to do the trick. For the first 24 hours, they checked her blood sugar each time I fed her and had orders to give her an ounce of formula if it was low again; luckily, however, we never had to do that.
The first two nights, my blood sugar was running so low that I set a zero basal rate and stayed around 100. It's amazing how much easier my blood sugar has been to manage since delivery, other than the fact that I've had plenty of lows. I've just tried to stay on top of changing my rates accordingly, and everything has gone relatively smoothly d-wise!
I have plenty more to tell about our new life, but I'll save that for later. Right now, I'm going to enjoy holding our precious baby girl!
As most of you know, we were scheduled for a c-section on January 25th. The day before, we were supposed to go for my last ultrasound and OB visit to confirm that our little one was still breech and to go over any last-minute details and questions. However, we never made it that far...it turns out that my mom's "feeling" that she would come before then was right! Around 2:30AM on the 24th, my water broke. After waking up my husband (whose first question was, "Are you sure?"...Yes, honey, I am positive that the huge gush I just experienced wasn't courtesy of my bladder!) and calling to talk to the doctor on call, we finished up packing the last few things so we could begin the hour-and-a-half drive to the hospital. The OB I talked to told me there was no reason to rush; that once we got there, they'd just plan to call our doctor and we'd do the c-section around 7:00 that morning as long as everything looked good.
While we got our things together, however, I started having contractions...contractions that were three minutes apart. I still didn't think much of it; after all, contractions were supposed to be irregular at the start of labor, right? We got everything (and ourselves) loaded up in the car and took off. Since we didn't think we were in much of a hurry, my hubby drove 75 the whole way, just five miles over the speed limit. Meanwhile, I was trying to hold it together and deal with the pain by breathing deeply. That worked for a while, but my contractions just got stronger and stronger and were definitely closer together...they were two minutes apart and a minute long the entire way. By the time we were 30 miles away, I was having a hard time dealing with the pain; when we got into town, I was thinking that I would definitely need an epidural if I was going to go through that for a few more hours!
When we arrived at the hospital, we parked in front of the ER entrance and grabbed my file folder of paperwork out of the car. Apparently, the triage nurse could clearly tell I was in active labor, because we were admitted instantly and taken up to the labor and delivery floor (fastest ER visit I've ever had!). Once we got to a L&D room, the nurses started prepping me for surgery and asking me a million questions. I was in A LOT of pain, and the nurse starting my IV had to keep reminding me to breathe deeply. They were debating on whether or not to check me to see how much I was dilated, but decided since I'd be having a c-section there wasn't any need. Right after that conclusion, however, I started to feel some pressure. Once I told them that, one of the nurses did a cervical exam and announced that I was complete...as in, completely dilated, all 10cm! (Oh, and she was still breech...which turned out to be a blessing in disguise, because if she'd been head down, she probably would have been born on the road somewhere between home and the hospital!) At that point, things started moving a lot quicker (and they told me not to push), but I still had to sign more paperwork before they took us back to the operating room...I'm pretty sure my signature was unrecognizable as my own, but I was in so much shock at how quickly everything had progressed that I honestly didn't care! I just couldn't believe that I'd progressed from 0-60 (relatively speaking, not literally of course!) in just a couple of hours, especially since first labors are supposed to be much longer, on average...Then again, nothing about me ever seems to fall on the "normal" side of things =) Either way, it explained why I was in so much pain...which, I'll admit, did give me a certain sense of accomplishment since I wasn't sure if I'd be able to handle labor without medication!
Once we got back to the OR, they transferred me to the operating table and quickly shaved me and got everything prepped for the c-section. Luckily, the anesthesiologist was waiting, so between (super painful) contractions, he did his thing. (The spinal, by the way, was a breeze...I've had insulin pump sites that were more painful, although I'm sure it seemed a lot less so in comparison to my contractions!) I was then able to lay down, and felt one more contraction before everything from the waist down went gloriously numb. Meanwhile, my hubby was scrubbing in for the delivery. He had planned to watch the c-section, but after everything had gone so quickly, he just wanted to be by my side through it all. The nurses in the delivery room were joking that they'd have to teach him to deliver babies for our next children, since they always say subsequent labors go faster than the first--yikes!
Up to that point, I'd been wearing my pump and CGM and had been checking my blood sugar every so often so I'd know where I was. Since I had been consistently around 110 throughout labor, I wasn't worried at all about my blood sugar during surgery; however, things in that respect unfortunately didn't exactly go as planned. My doctor had given me the go-ahead to keep my pump on throughout the whole process and my CDE was going to be on site in case the anesthesiologist had any questions or problems with it, but since neither of them were there at 5:00 in the morning, I was left to hash out the details with them myself. The anesthesiologist, though very, very nice and wonderful at his job, didn't like the idea of keeping my pump hooked up, so I had to take it off. By the time I was in recovery, I think my blood sugar was around 140 (if I remember correctly). Due to that fact, our sweet little girl's blood sugar was low upon her arrival into the world, something I never thought we'd have to deal with since my control had been so good through the entire pregnancy.
Other than that, however, we were incredibly blessed to have a perfectly healthy baby girl! My husband got to watch them examine her while they stitched me up, and even got to have her little feet stamped on his disposable scrub shirt...he is so proud of that keepsake! After they cleaned her up, I got to see and kiss her before they took her to the nursery and wheeled me to the recovery room. They eventually brought her to me in there to breastfeed in an attempt to raise her blood sugar, but ended up having to give her some formula to do the trick. For the first 24 hours, they checked her blood sugar each time I fed her and had orders to give her an ounce of formula if it was low again; luckily, however, we never had to do that.
The first two nights, my blood sugar was running so low that I set a zero basal rate and stayed around 100. It's amazing how much easier my blood sugar has been to manage since delivery, other than the fact that I've had plenty of lows. I've just tried to stay on top of changing my rates accordingly, and everything has gone relatively smoothly d-wise!
I have plenty more to tell about our new life, but I'll save that for later. Right now, I'm going to enjoy holding our precious baby girl!
Thursday, January 12, 2012
C-Sections/Delivery/Diabetes Management...It's All Reality Now!
I know what you're thinking...Two posts in one week, whoa! I'll admit, it hasn't happened much in the past several months. When you're growing a person, everything else kind of automatically and subconsciously takes a back seat to their well being! My last post was quite literally the shortest one I've ever written, mainly because I wanted to post something in the two seconds I had before I left work that day.
Any updates I could give today would mostly be reiterations from a couple of days ago; however, I did want to share that after my ultrasound and doctor's appointment yesterday, we are officially scheduled for a c-section on January 25th. Yes, our sweet little girl is still in the breech position, and call it mother's intuition, but I just don't see her turning anytime soon. After weighing our options, the hubby and I decided that opting for the c-section was the best decision for us simply because version seems like such an impossibility at this point...I honestly believe that due to the same reason she's still upright in there--according to the OB, my ab muscles are still pretty tight, which means that (a) my belly isn't very big for being nine months pregnant and (b) she just doesn't have much room to move. Of course I know this because her head has been jabbing me in the rib off and on for the past couple of days! Oh well, it's a pain that is well worth enduring =)
I also discussed what would happen immediately following delivery with my OB, and he said that as long as the baby is okay, they should be able to bring her to us while I'm in recovery...something that's very important to me since I plan to breastfeed. He and I both believe that the low blood sugar common in babies born to mothers with diabetes should be a nonissue for us, especially because the surgery is scheduled first thing in the morning, when my blood sugar is normally hovering around the 60-70 range. They'll check it nonetheless, though. [For those of you who are unfamiliar with this phenomenon, it goes something like this: When the mother's blood sugar is higher than normal, the baby's body also produces insulin to process the additional sugar. When the baby is born, and therefore no longer has that additional sugar to process, their own blood sugar drops from the excess insulin they've produced.]
In addition, I asked my OB about the necessity of the antibiotic eye ointment that is usually given following delivery. It just didn't make sense to me for them to do it following a c-section if the reason it's given is to prevent the transmission of STDs and other infections to the baby's eyes during a vaginal birth...therefore, the c-section eliminates this possibility entirely. The reason this even matters to me is because again, I want to try to breastfeed as soon as possible following delivery, and the eye ointment makes the baby's vision blurry for a while--thus having the potential for interfering with breastfeeding and bonding. My OB said that he didn't think they'd have a problem with not doing it, but that I'd have to tell them because it's pretty much standard protocol following every delivery.
What else?...Oh yeah, I asked him about returning to exercise following a c-section. I'm sure I won't be as worried about that a few weeks from now, but I figure that if I at least think about it, there's a possibility I'll actually do it much sooner than if I put it out of my mind. Believe it or not, I do miss the feeling of running, because I haven't been physically able to for the past nine months due to various reasons! The closer I get to delivery, the more amazed I am by that woman who gave birth after running a marathon a few months back...granted, she walked half of it, but that's a whole 13.1 miles that she actually ran! My hips and other joints hurt just getting out of bed in the mornings, so I can't imagine what they'd feel like after that kind of challenge!
Diabetes-wise, my CDE contacted me last week to discuss the changes I should expect in regards to my insulin needs following delivery. I told her I couldn't believe how much insulin I've been using recently compared to pre-pregnancy...that whole "your insulin needs will double or even triple by the end of pregnancy" thing? It's true. Mine have slightly more than doubled, and even though I knew it was to be expected, it's still shocking to see the amount of insulin I use now versus before! Not that it matters much (other than having to have my insulin refilled much more often)...it's just weird to me. Anyway, my CDE said my insulin needs will at least be cut in half post-delivery, and that hypos are going to be a possibility. I wouldn't be surprised if they're a reality, especially since I'll be nursing.
I mentioned it last time too, but I have to say it again...these last weeks seem incredibly strange time-wise. During the day, I have a hard time focusing on anything at hand because my "before the baby gets here to-do list" is constantly running through my mind, and at the end of the week, I can't believe how fast time has flown. It's a weird, weird dichotomy to be caught in the middle of. At least at this point, I can start the countdown to being able to take off work...just four more business days left, and I have an ultrasound appointment on one of them! I have two ultrasounds next week along with an OB visit and an appointment with my endocrinologist, so I have a feeling I'm going to be doctored-out by the time the week is over...but I guess I can't complain too much, because my OB has let me slide in that regard so far! In the beginning, he told me that since I was high-risk, I'd have to see him twice a week at the end, but he's only made me come once a week up to now since everything has gone so well...and because we live two hours away. Even going weekly wears me out, so I can only imagine the toll twice-weekly visits for an entire month would take! Well, I guess I better go...the work day is finally over, so I'm going to go home and relax a bit!
Any updates I could give today would mostly be reiterations from a couple of days ago; however, I did want to share that after my ultrasound and doctor's appointment yesterday, we are officially scheduled for a c-section on January 25th. Yes, our sweet little girl is still in the breech position, and call it mother's intuition, but I just don't see her turning anytime soon. After weighing our options, the hubby and I decided that opting for the c-section was the best decision for us simply because version seems like such an impossibility at this point...I honestly believe that due to the same reason she's still upright in there--according to the OB, my ab muscles are still pretty tight, which means that (a) my belly isn't very big for being nine months pregnant and (b) she just doesn't have much room to move. Of course I know this because her head has been jabbing me in the rib off and on for the past couple of days! Oh well, it's a pain that is well worth enduring =)
I also discussed what would happen immediately following delivery with my OB, and he said that as long as the baby is okay, they should be able to bring her to us while I'm in recovery...something that's very important to me since I plan to breastfeed. He and I both believe that the low blood sugar common in babies born to mothers with diabetes should be a nonissue for us, especially because the surgery is scheduled first thing in the morning, when my blood sugar is normally hovering around the 60-70 range. They'll check it nonetheless, though. [For those of you who are unfamiliar with this phenomenon, it goes something like this: When the mother's blood sugar is higher than normal, the baby's body also produces insulin to process the additional sugar. When the baby is born, and therefore no longer has that additional sugar to process, their own blood sugar drops from the excess insulin they've produced.]
In addition, I asked my OB about the necessity of the antibiotic eye ointment that is usually given following delivery. It just didn't make sense to me for them to do it following a c-section if the reason it's given is to prevent the transmission of STDs and other infections to the baby's eyes during a vaginal birth...therefore, the c-section eliminates this possibility entirely. The reason this even matters to me is because again, I want to try to breastfeed as soon as possible following delivery, and the eye ointment makes the baby's vision blurry for a while--thus having the potential for interfering with breastfeeding and bonding. My OB said that he didn't think they'd have a problem with not doing it, but that I'd have to tell them because it's pretty much standard protocol following every delivery.
What else?...Oh yeah, I asked him about returning to exercise following a c-section. I'm sure I won't be as worried about that a few weeks from now, but I figure that if I at least think about it, there's a possibility I'll actually do it much sooner than if I put it out of my mind. Believe it or not, I do miss the feeling of running, because I haven't been physically able to for the past nine months due to various reasons! The closer I get to delivery, the more amazed I am by that woman who gave birth after running a marathon a few months back...granted, she walked half of it, but that's a whole 13.1 miles that she actually ran! My hips and other joints hurt just getting out of bed in the mornings, so I can't imagine what they'd feel like after that kind of challenge!
Diabetes-wise, my CDE contacted me last week to discuss the changes I should expect in regards to my insulin needs following delivery. I told her I couldn't believe how much insulin I've been using recently compared to pre-pregnancy...that whole "your insulin needs will double or even triple by the end of pregnancy" thing? It's true. Mine have slightly more than doubled, and even though I knew it was to be expected, it's still shocking to see the amount of insulin I use now versus before! Not that it matters much (other than having to have my insulin refilled much more often)...it's just weird to me. Anyway, my CDE said my insulin needs will at least be cut in half post-delivery, and that hypos are going to be a possibility. I wouldn't be surprised if they're a reality, especially since I'll be nursing.
I mentioned it last time too, but I have to say it again...these last weeks seem incredibly strange time-wise. During the day, I have a hard time focusing on anything at hand because my "before the baby gets here to-do list" is constantly running through my mind, and at the end of the week, I can't believe how fast time has flown. It's a weird, weird dichotomy to be caught in the middle of. At least at this point, I can start the countdown to being able to take off work...just four more business days left, and I have an ultrasound appointment on one of them! I have two ultrasounds next week along with an OB visit and an appointment with my endocrinologist, so I have a feeling I'm going to be doctored-out by the time the week is over...but I guess I can't complain too much, because my OB has let me slide in that regard so far! In the beginning, he told me that since I was high-risk, I'd have to see him twice a week at the end, but he's only made me come once a week up to now since everything has gone so well...and because we live two hours away. Even going weekly wears me out, so I can only imagine the toll twice-weekly visits for an entire month would take! Well, I guess I better go...the work day is finally over, so I'm going to go home and relax a bit!
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
The Shortest Blog Post I've Ever Written
It's getting down to the wire, and it seems like I'm constantly busy these days! For that reason, I decided I'd sum up the past few weeks' updates in a short blog post...Undoubtedly the shortest one I've ever written! So here it is:
- Baby is still breech.
- Because said baby is still breech, we are tentatively scheduled for a c-section in two weeks.
- I've come to peace with all of this, because as I decided in my last post, there are some things you just can't control!
- Diabetes management is still going well...not like super amazing or anything, but good enough.
- We've almost finished the nursery, and our shower is scheduled for this Sunday, when I'll be 37 weeks!
- I finally discussed my maternity leave with my bosses/parents, so now I know what to expect as far as that goes. Thankfully I'll have six weeks off after she's born to enjoy her!
- I've been getting things done, but it always seems like for everything I get accomplished, something else pops up for me to do...oh well, such is life =)
- The last couple of weeks feel a lot like a kid waiting for Christmas...it seems like time is just crawling by, even though I know it's going to fly in retrospect!
I think that pretty much sums it up, so until next time...=)
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